Over the weekend, I had a manifestation of new ideas. They all made sense at the time, and as I look back at them now, I feel they made sense, I just can't connect the feelings with the correct wording.
A friend and I just finished doing things, and decided to go on a walk to the park. 15 minutes into the walk, I began to feel the thoughts flow from the back of my head, and out through my forehead. When the thoughts left my forehead, they continued to expand, until the idea led onto another, and another; thoughts just smoothly flowing in. The only analogy I could think of was, if your body was transparent/ghost-like, and you sat in a gentle flowing river; instead of the water (being the thoughts) flowing around and past you, they flowed through you.

The first major thought that came into my mind while I was observing nature around me was, Why do humans enjoy doing this? I began searching my mind for answers. It wasn't that difficult. I came to a conclusion quit quickly (sorry if this sounds far fetched, lol). We have lost a relationship with the natural world around us. Deep down inside, we want to connect with the natural world, and by connecting with the natural world, you must let all your human-like-thoughts go, I.e: Work, school, grocery shopping etc...
"human thoughts" as I began to label them, are hindering us from expanding our minds. Every other creature in the world seems to live peacefully with themselves and nature. Why? Because they don't have to worry about getting to work on time, or paying the bills! Letting go of these human thoughts made thought flow very smooth. Everything made sense. All the questions were answered. I thought to myself, animals must think like this all the time. They don't go out questioning things, because they connect themselves with nature and it all makes sense to them -which makes them at peace with their surroundings and themselves. Unlike us, humans, were we have lost our connection with nature, and must question everything, live life difficult, and get in fights over trivial things because we cant find the answer. If we get in touch with nature, all those things will wither away, and we will be at peace. (I really hope that made sense, lol)

This thought stuck out to me the most. I was sitting on bleachers, listening to Tool - Pushit (live) If you have ever heard the song, you'll know the lyrics -I'm not going to go off on a tangent about the lyrics. While listening, I felt the song pushing me backwards. Pushing, and pushing, and pushing. I realized, I was gradually falling backwards. This was starting to paranoi me, so I pushed back to where I was sitting upright again. But every time Maynard (the vocalist) would say the word "push" I would be pushed back, more, and more, and more, and I would push back, again, and again. It felt like a struggle. I began thinking about this, wondering, why is this happening? and it hit me, the song was trying to tell me something. It was trying to push my mind down to the earth/ground (lol, again, sorry if this makes no sense). It wanted my mind to connect with the earth. I realized right then, the song wasn't pushing my body, it was pushing my mind down. It wanted to tell me something. The only way I could listen to what the song was telling me was if I connected my mind to the ground below. So, I stopped pushing (mentally) and began thinking...if everyone connected their minds to the earth, we would all technically be connected, since our minds are touching the same thing. Then, we would be able to understand everyone and everything around us. We would fuel our thoughts, and the earth's winds and rivers would push them to another persons mind. Our thoughts would all flow through each other, like a giant cycle. Then my friend and I got how everything's a cycle, but I'm not going to go into that, lol.

this experience was different then my other "thinking sessions". I hope there's more in the future. I also believe there was a theme to this "thinking session": Getting in touch with nature will get you in touch with yourself.

I really hope this made a LITTLE bit of sense! It was really hard to explain, but I explained to the best of my abilities.

G'day.

To-Do List

Manifest the illustrations in my head correctly
Apply my artwork to my life
Acquire enough knowledge/materials to make it on my own within the next year
Move to Seattle
Become a strong weed
Canvas my body with my soul
Hear something beautiful
Dilute my emotions
Learn from Animals
Honor my plights
Figure out what draws me to the Wolf
Experience an epiphany




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